-= Wan The Bear Wonder =-

it all started today when...
i entered my fac parking lot and some mofo chose to double park hence blocking my way. and so i had to drive in the opposing lane when i came head to head to some idiot and his minah. i gestured nicely that the other lane was blocked when he insisted that i reverse a good 100m to let him pass...now...i was near the end and he was at the beginning of the lane...is it wrong for him to just reverse 2m to let me fucking pass...and with my brilliant amount of stubborness i stayed put.he gave in and i raised my hand in thanx but what did the motherfucker do...he gestured with the back of his hand assuming i'm a gutless pussy...and so he deserved the middle finger i gave him...he climbed out of his car thinking he was the "man" what he didn't expect was for me to come out of mine and to see a hardened bloke twice his motherfucking size...
and so instead of arguing he was supposedly advising me to be nice...not to pull faces...all i said wasnt that if he wasn't happy i can beat the shit outta him in front of his girl...and so mr macho over there...shrank...and i smelled malaysian pussy for the first time...

and so i wasn't it the fucking best of moods,as you can tell from my sentences, and i proceeded to a class taught by an imbecile of a woman...
she was teaching about fire something...control or design in building or some shit...she came up with facts which were inaccurate and i pointed it out with my 5 cents worth of opinions...and what form of attack did she take on me you might ask?
oh things here in malaysia is different from singapore we follow the brit standards...
and my personal favourite...what you've learnt in singapore does not apply here, cause the standards and procedures are just too different...

last i checked almost all the countries in the region abide by Brit standards with the exception of the philippines...so what the fuck!!!????!!!!

What the fuck is that about?
if she has such a big problem of where i'm from,just say it...what a dumbass..
i can leave the course, class or school...

here i am trying my best, being the best, and representing my fac and school...i'm doing more than my average coursemate...and this is what you have to say...please man, take a step back and reflect on your stupidity...
this joke u call proffessionalism...is clearly not applied to your working society...whatever you try to instill is not working nor does make sense in the actions you do...
and how can i take this course seriously when i'm classified with a bunch of idiots...you class us as the same? when i can complete entire sentences and properly answer your exams and the next joker who doen't even know what he's talking about half the time scores higher than me? there's your points dockage right there.how can i share the same scores for presentations? when the method of delivery was supposed to be in english...can you, dear lecturer understand me in the first place?

now the problem is, i never boasted about my origins, yes, i do say where i'm from but i always back my allegiances up by proudly declaring where i am Now!
so the lecturers talk,only my previous Head of Programs new from administration, and then everyone knew before the end of my first semester...so is it my fault...what is this fascination they have? i don't know, i am still of the same descent and i do bleed red...so what the fuck? What's the problem with the Malays nowadays?

everywhere i go, people declare, hey this is my fried Redhuan or WanTheBear, he's from Singapore..so is it my arrogance or your fascination that a malay can be born and raised elsewhere from here...Last i heard there are malays in england, South africa, australia and so on so forth...so what the fuck? why the stigmatism?????????

cant you see that the fac is turning to a kampung.

i asked my classmates whether they have a problem concerning my origins and they admitted to nothing so what do i care...don't blame me for your imbecilic ways...

So now i know why my grades are constantly docked...

i am starting to hate this place so much
so help me God...

i will never delete this entry as this is an actual account of what happened today...

Life is getting tougher here with all this stigmatism and boredom too...man, i need a a hit...

trust me, if i had choice or another oppurtunity, i'd go somewhere alse...cause this feels like an uphill battle that i can't win...

and so people, this is what i face on a fucking daily basis...or until i can escape elsewhere...

man,this coupled with my pangs of loneliness...

i'm gonna be suicidal soon...

this is such a dissapointment...to my expectations of a salvation from the oppression i used to live by...

and so dear mr Prime Minister, this is what i face on a day to day basis, although i wish to contribute to your society and the fact that i am pround to declare that Malaysia is my new home...these are the problems i face on a day to day basis...this is a clear example of the malays wishing to kill the malays...